Dear Mark

I have been so busy over the past bit that I haven't really tried to contact you. We should really talk. I think a relationship could be mutually beneficial.

I've still been looking for her. I think you're experiences might be able to help me find her.

But I suppose that all you readers would like to know what has happened since last time we spoke. Not much has, but there was one very important thing that happened. I saw her again. She didn't see me, but I saw her. She was in a supermarket wandering around. A random woman I had never seen before pulled her out before I could make eye contact. I tried to follow them, but I lost them. I swear she almost looked...ugly. Sickly, even. Like she had had a stroke.

I've also had a new dream. It took place in a black void. It seemed to have no floor, no ceiling, no walls. Just blackness everywhere. I'm standing this time rather than the usual sitting. When I look around, I see him next to me. The only difference is that he seems almost the same height as me. As if he's been diminished in some way. It feels strange to stand so close to him and not panic, but I stand there as tranquil as a monk. Almost like I feel we relate in some way. Like we are the same degraded man.

When I look straight forward, I see her standing there. She's facing away from both of us, looking into a bright, white light. She starts walking toward it. I begin trying to struggle to catch her. To stop her from leaving. I can only move my head. I look over at him and see him attempting to move as well. All he can do is shake his head in panic. I try to stay calm. It's hard, but I am able to keep myself from crying and obscuring my vision.

She is almost a perfect silhouette when she turns her head back and smiles. Her face begins to melt and she turns away and disappears into the light.

-Casey

Renewed Friendship

I woke up to a interesting sight this morning. I saw a man in a hoodie huddled over in the corner. He was sitting there, motionless. I got out of my grody motel bed and retrieved an ever so convenient lamp off of my bedside table. I snuck up in front of him and nudged him with my foot. He looked up and I finally saw his eyes for what they truly were. Blind.

At first, I didn't recognize him. But then the outline seemed familiar. His shape. I dropped the lamp and heard it shatter on the floor. He reached his hand as if for me to help him up. I don't know how he made his way inside or how he was even able to see me. But something was guiding him. I grabbed his hand and felt a surge of nostalgia. Like I was sitting with an old friend.

I heard him ask me a question. It was faint at first but I eventually caught a voice in my head. His lips didn't move, but I heard him speak. He reminded me that he was only a friend. He told me that he wished to help. I told him he would have to prove it. He showed me everything.


When I woke up, it seemed to be the middle of the night. He was sitting next to me, watching. The only memories I had between me falling asleep and me waking up were images. Images from eyes which were not familiar to me. Images from his world. My family and friends being tortured. Maimed. Killed. I was seemingly forced to watch them go through all of this suffering. When I awoke, I thought I would punch him. Or strangle him. I should've, considering the things I saw him do.

Instead, I only felt pity. I felt sad for him. I would've ended it all had I been forced to do all those things. He was able to fight through to make sure the person he cared about lived. And that person was me. I don't know why, but I know he cares about me. I know he wants to help. I'll post when I next can, we're gonna hop outta here before they bill us.

-Casey

False Victory

That's right. I had done it. I had killed the thing that I've been trying to get away from for months. Or did I?

After my state of adrenaline and euphoria faded away, I began to take in my surroundings. And I realized that I was not as victorious as I had been so sure about. I look down, blood covering my boots, and See the crushed skull of a man. Mid-30s maybe. I began to panic and freak out. I hastily hid the body (good thing I was wearing gloves). I also washed all the now red blood off of my grandparent's car. I took one more gland at the road behind my car to find her still gone. I had done nothing. Well, except for kill a man. That wasn't new for me. The puking was, though. Never thought I had so much stored in my stomach. I got back in the car and broke down for a bit. After breathing deeply and wiping my tears from my eyes, I began driving forward again. Like it was just another day. I didn't look suspicious at all.

I finally got to a town the next morning. I decided that I would keep driving after I got something to eat. So I went to a truck stop diner place. It was alright enough. Then, I went back to the car to find a note in my car.

"You will never know when you have truly won. You are too imaginative for that.

:)"

That bitch. Why doesn't he just come and face me? I have experience now! I could take him! If he wants to come get me, let him come. I will stomp him into the ground if I have to.

-Casey

More sightings

I am seeing them everywhere now. Almost like he's trying to taunt me. That bastard...

I just wish I knew if I was hallucinating or not. Only one time have I actually interacted with him recently.

I was driving again. And I saw him again. And I rammed the fucker. I was out in the middle of nowhere, driving East. He was just standing there in the middle of the road, like he had nothing to fear. Shows him. I smashed into him and watched him smash into the hood of the car, black blood spraying everywhere. Only then did I realize that she was behind me in the road, Having flown all the way through the car windows. I unbuckled and ran out as fast as I could only to find her gone. She disappeared from my grasp again. This time It's all my fault. I'll never forgive myself for this.

But I held in the tears and walked back to the car. He was still there, not completely dead, but not even close to alive. I raised my foot, heard some garbled scream, then smashed his head open. And red blood went everywhere.

-Casey

I saw him again

I saw him. I know I did. I saw him on the freeway, just standing there. She was with him. I tried to stop and get to her but he disappeared with her before I could reach them. That bastard. She didn't even look upset. He must've done something to her. Brainwashed her or something. I know she misses me, because I miss her. She has to. She.....she....

I'm in a dark room again. They're both there, but my friend is gone. My friend has ceased his pursuit, it seems. I was happy with that friendship. But then I must stop thinking, because he is enveloping her. He is trying to steal her away. I try to stand, but I cannot move. But then she breaks free from his grasp. She runs toward me and I'm preparing to have her again, but she doesn't stop. She runs right past me and I can't look back. I don't know who or what she's running to. He is standing there, seemingly helpless. He just stands there. I almost feel sad for him. Sudden I can't remember anything. No memories. No feelings. Not even my own name.

-Casey

Losing Hope

I'm sorry I haven't posted. I've been trying to find her ever since my last post. No one was able to help, and they said the girl looked like a lizard. What assholes! I just wish people were more helpful these days. I've traveled up to Fresno. I'm beginning to think I'll get back to Portland before I find her. I don't want to go back there. Too many bad memories. Speaking of which, I was called by someone and told that my mother's body was found along with a jar full of strange smelling purple smoke. They are trying to connect it to some sort of itch cult, and I just wish I could tell them what's really going on.Everything about The Slender Man and Smile and The Sect. And that it's all real. But they would just admit me to a psyche ward or arrest me. And I need to find her and keep her with me. So I can't tell anyone.

So, this guy commented on one of my posts. "Mark White". I clicked his name and read his blog. It seems he wants to help me, and I wouldn't mind helping him. From what that message said I think helping him will bring her back to me. And I need that to happen. So, I will update once Mark and I have made official contact and we will try to do something about all this shit.

-Casey

Disappointment

I called the police before setting out. I reported a missing person. I described how she looked, told them where I last saw her. And then those assholes had the gall to ask her name. I hung up right then and there. If they're gonna disrespect her, I don't need their help. I'll find her on my own. I'll start by going North. I doubt she went back toward San Diego. I will start driving after I post this and will ask around with her picture. I'll update later after I've asked some people.

-Casey

Sorrow

She's gone. I woke up and she was gone. I have to find her. She's mine. Nobody can take her from me. I can't let that happen. He will take her if I don't save her. savehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersavehersaveher.

Intrusion

I had a dream last night. I'm laying in my bed, and she is standing next to it, smiling. So beautiful. She whispers in my ear. So beautiful. She cuts off my limbs. So beautiful. She rips out my heart. So beautiful. She eats it with a giant grin on her face. So beautiful. Then I woke up.

Ever since she has gotten here, I've slept on the couch. When I woke up, I heard the glass door in my room sliding open. She sleeps in there. Nobody goes in there. I bolted up and ran as fast as I could into there. In saw him standing there. He stood there like a pillar of marble, straight as a pole, not a single twitch. He began to reach out for her with a tentacle, but I grabbed her and ran out as soon as I saw him. I grabbed a kitchen knife, bottles of water, and some chips and threw everything into my grandmother's car. I can drive well enough. I sped out of the driveway and down the street. I could see him coming towards me in the rear-view mirror. I must've gone over the speed limit by a lot, but he seemed to give up after a while. She went back to sleep in the back, and I looked up hotels that were a good distance away. I found a reasonably priced one and drove to it. It was a sleazy motel, but at least they let me take a room.

She's watching TV now. Some kid's pirate show or something. I don't know what step I'll take next. Oh, she wants to type something. Guvf bar jvyy xabj gehr fhssrevat. Lbh jvyy frr n zna qrtenqr gb qhfg.

Awww, she just type random letters. I'll leave it, it's just too cute. I'll post tomorrow if I can. Update you on the situation. Stuff like that.

-Casey

So Pretty

So I opened my door, and this little girl was there. She was so cute, I swear she must've been from another world. She looked into my eyes, and I felt like I was her friend. Like we had known each other for years. Like I had to protect her. I asked my grandparents if a friend could stay over. They said no. A good shovel to the head took care of them. She walked in and went straight to my room to rest. I don't know what her name is, but I know she's a good person. She looks so nice tuckered out on that bed. Oh, TV just turned on. Better go get that. Bye guys!

-Casey

Futile Efforts

It seems that I have not  been able to shake my pursuer. I haven't seen him, but I've seen signs of him everywhere. I got a mysterious e-mail with just ":)" in it. My desktop background got changed to a picture of a forest. I haven't seen anything in there yet. I think I've heard things outside. And I've had a new dream. I dream of a black room, similar to before. This time I can see him from the beginning. I hear someone whispering in my ear. He comes closer and I feel my stomach acids boiling. He embraces me with his black tentacles and the whispers stop. The shroud disappears and I'm in the sky. I look down into a dark abyss. Then I wake up. It's happened 3 times now, never changing a bit. One second, someone's knocking on my door. I'll post again when I can.

-Casey

My Eyes Are Open

I can do nothing but mourn. After what I've been through, I think I need a break. But I can't take a break. I know they'll find out about this soon. I know it. I need to be poised and ready. I need to fight to the end. I have kept my knife at the ready. I don't know what to expect, but I know it won't be good.

-Casey